giving up
So i have decided that Hahn is just a bad person for me. I mean come on, really what kind of decent man would do the things that he does to me. Why would someone be affectionate one moment and cold the next. Why would they only act as if they wanted to be with me when we are alone, and ignore me when we are out with friends…. why…. one thing comes to my mind… The sex. In all honesty i think that that is all that he saw in me from day one. I am not going to make myself upset over some guy who doesn’t seem to understand that it is not ok to go around fucking with peoples emotions. So i am giving up… this is my official declaration.
Don’t get me wrong. I still want to be friends with the guy… and i am sure that much we are both ok with. I just need to spend some time away and get my thoughts in order before i see him again.
Other than that there is not a hell of a lot that has been going on. I went and saw Babylon A. D. the other night… it sucked. Then again take a look at the cast. But it wasn’t as bad as mirrors was so at least i wouldn’t classify it as a TOTAL waste of 8 bucks. GOD the price of a movie ticket now a days is insane!
My four day weekend is coming to an end and i am both happy and sad about it. Happy because it means that i will be able to start doing things other than sitting around my room watching One Piece. Sad because it means that i will have to leave my room and face the outside world.
I wish i was back in Korea when things were sucky as far as work went but i enjoyed my days off. I miss writing in some random cafe with Fi… i miss the train system… lol then again that is because i miss my car T_T
I had a doctors appointment last Thursday about my wrist. it seems that the cyst has yet to go away and i have to start the whole process for sugary over again. but with any luck it will be a bit quicker this time than it was last time.
Classes for school start on the 8th… and i don’t even have the money for my textbooks. I am going to be broke as hell this month so there is no way that i am able to afford text books, not when they want 300 bucks for 2. i may have to drop my language course until next semester and just leave the math one. I am sure that i can work with my teacher on that… maybe.
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